YOU ARE LOVE

I stare in you

I feel in you

I share in you

I submerge in you

I crave in you

I shine in you

I feed in you

I am in you

You are love!

experiences

..... so im watching some soldier movie and it has me thinking about things..

Its so weird how you can be in the same environment with other people and have no idea what they feel or have experienced. I mean i was in the USAF for 4yrs but i watch this movie and im as lost as the next person who doesn't even know what USAF stands for.. im like wow some of these folks are really jacked up, what was so different from their experience and mine??
i dont wake up sweating..
i don't have problems sleeping..
its not hard to adapt in the "real" world
etc...etc...
shit i barely even think about it...most people dont even know i ever did it..
i live like it never happened..just a simple phase in life..

High school..
was i a geek or something?? cuz i sure as helll dont have the kind stories some people do..
im like was my high school just lame or was i lame *confused*
i mean i played sports i was popular but errrrrr only thing i can remember was maybe a cpl crushes etc..
come to think of it, most of my experiences that were interesting during high school, had nothing to do with high school. it was outside of it.. actually same goes for the military too. I just lived a double life and separated the two.

hmm life and all its experiences!!

Therapy

Girlfriends

Sun Shine

Swimming

Popsicles

Pizza

Wine

chocolates..

Yes this is THERAPY!

So I had all this yesterday and boy was it worth it..

Think this needs to become a weekly/bi-weekly routine for the summer.

silence

I have nothing to say.....

I am surrounded by noise........

and all I need is SILENCE!

I have nothing to prove.....

U have nothing to gain................

So why cant all of you just be SILENT!

Do u like the sound of your voice..............

or the way it deals............

Have u learned the art of SILENCE!

I wont say to much................

there's not much to say...........

from now on, ill just be SILENT!

Midnight cravings Pt2 (hello ty)

12:43am

tic - toc

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I look at you, looking at me.

With that same look you did early this morning.

tic - toc

once again my midnight cravings have come to haunt me, taunt me, and make my night miserable...

I see how u tease me

laugh at me cuz im so weak

you're just like my chocolate diary

smooth and sweet

let me pour out all my frustrations

not saying a word or a peep...

tic - toc

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Actually its turned into soft buzzes the sound soothing my ears to sleep.

indulging in my midnight craving is such a beautiful thing.

tic - toc

12:51am

yea.. :)

First of the month

Wake up wake up wake up its the.......




yess ohhhh get up get up and cash your checks and common..

Gosh i used to love this song!!!

funny thing is i dont think most people understand what the song is about...
for all my nickel and dime sellers..my kpomers out there and most of all this song will not exist without you my peeps on welfare..

1st of the month is time to go cash that gov't cheese go get that stuff and fat up the dough boys pockets...

BUttttttttttttttttt for the rest of us who aren't so lucky... lol....we will be paying rent amongst other bills..

Oh the day when the 1st of the month is the same as the 15th or the 20th..no bills, no financial responsibilities...just livin it up free to run around nekid hehhehe

so im feeling like a kid again..going round and round swimming in my own thoughts, fantasies, and worries. I have this thing were i just escape my self sometimes and everything and everyone around me is make believe. Sooner or later tho i snap out of it and the harsh realities of life come tumbling down on me again..
I have this urge to just get away, i really wanna get away. where to? Iono, just wanna up and leave. I think i actually have a problem with staying put in one place because growing up till about the age of 23 I never stayed in one place. From 0-10 we moved btwn Chicago and Houston off and on.. Then went off to London for 5yrs but traveled allot while i was there... anyway in btwn went to naija then back to chi..then houston again, New Orleans.. Portugal, Va then finally now Ga!

phewww thats allot huh.. and no I am not a military brat go figure..

so do yall think all that has something to do with why i can't stay put, I just dont feel permanent anywhere.. im always ready to move on to the next place.
Ehnn oh well..