Sunshine Sunday

Roses and petals, strawberries and kisses..

sunshine and loving, good friends with good wishes....

words from above, sweet feelings and hugs...

these are my SUNSHINE SUNDAYS!!

Okay hang over is finally over!


My akanni me precious readers.. i do apologize for the jumbled words of my last blog.. i was somewhat out of it when i wrote it as im sure all my typo's and rantings showed.

lol it was kind of funny tho, cuz i dont remember even writing it or how i turned on the computer, logged in to the internet, and then my blog. heeehehehhe

*children stay away from alcohol*

back to my SS(sunshine sunday duh)....gosh yall are so slow

spoke to my mom 2day.. MAN i miss her like something stupid! She is soo amazing, my inspiration my friend, my confidant, my adviser. Sometimes i try to feel what she feels, cuz her love is so deep that i can feel it all the way from Naija.

My Best friend just gave birth to a baby girl and is about to also start this journey of mother and child...
wow im so happy for her and cant wait to watch this lil wonder grow...

So someone asked me.... what about yours ....lol...umm my what??

baby...? Na not now.. the thought of being pregnant, raising kids right now. well umm yea it doesnt make me like leap and scoot around a room... more like it makes me frown and hold my stomach in pain.. lol

im sure all that will change soon, at least b4 i turn 30 hmmmm thats not that far away..eekkkkk..

Sunshine Sundays... so the guys are watching some boring football (soccer) game I mean it aint Aresenal..my team Chelsea... Or ManU playing...or Naija.. so whats the point??? ehhn whatever..at least there is food and drinks :D :D

So i wore this dress after church right..but i didn't realize until after i went out that it was see throughhhhhhhhh ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

no wonder folks were looking at me smiling.. they could see my yellow and pink underwear :(

oh well... yall know im an undercover exhibitionists :)

aight gotta go get some grub..

Enjoy your Sunshine Sunday...SMOOCHES

TIME OUTTTT!!!

i went out for drinks so shit anytnng foes...lol.... i write whaat i fell and i feel what i write. NO questions adsked!!


so

yhu my friwnd are ojn time frwaking OUT and u know u are too!

i mean what the hell..... is it so hard for u to respond i mean really!??? well! no shakings i go jusy leave u be.


sonce i am bugging u anmd all, ill leave u alone!


i mean wait shebe u....

oh crap im sleepy
nevermnfd

sha dont talke to me!!!! u are on time OUT!!!!

YOUR ACCESS..MUST WATCH

He caught me

I was a junior in high school in Tx. It was one of the biggest games of the school year. Elkins vs Hastings bball finals. This game always packs out the biggest crowds and has the best after parties.
Now in my high school days ehnn i was one of the popular cool cats but still that didnt mean i didnt have crushes or that i didnt have a "so called rep" to maintain or a 'imma cool diva image" that i liked to put across.
With that being said, there is always that one guy who has u weak and nervous scared to ever look stupid or crazy in front of him..

Funny thing was my "guy" was not even a stranger, as a matter of fact we were close friends and dated for a cool minute.

Now back to the story.. so me and my girls are getting ready for the game and looking sooo utter fly, we're about to head out to the jeep when my moms is like oh "lemme drop u, your uncle needs to borrow your car" Im like wtf....hell TO THE MUTHA NAH!! so if u drop us off how do u expect us to get to my gf mom's shop (which was walking distance away)...walk?? Fuck no!! who walk's anywhere after the elkins/hastings game?? Especially not popular cool athlete ME!!! What if someone see's me? What if "MR" see's me?? EEKkkk at the thought.

(wow i now see how childish and shallow we high schoolers were) SMH

so our choices, walk back, or dont go.. shit i guess we just gonna have to walk, cus i need Mr to see me in this fly outfit and eat his heart out!

So game is cool, place was packed out, everyone was fly..i was fly, My MR saw me and I know he was like DAMN :D
I fronted and gave the " hey what up nod" hehehehe i was feeling too cool with myself. Now me and the girls had already decided to leave a cpl minutes early while everyone was doing parking lot pimping.. both schools hasting and elsik share the same plot of land, divided by fences.. so we're gonna cut through the back, hop the fence, cut around the school, take the ally and be home free to my friends mom shop. It was a great plan. No one would see us.

As we begin our journey.. we get thru the meadows safe, get to the fence and Lawd its a big ass fence, of course one of me caliantes couldn't make it over cuz her fat ass feet got stuck in the holes. needless to say we eventually pulled her over.. then the other chica decides she cant hold it any longer and pee's in the middle of the field.. lol it was a sight to behold.

aight we make it to the back of the school and about to approach the ally.. but we gotta cross over the busy road first which all the leavers from the game will probably be taking.. Shit as long as Mr dont see me, im str8!

we made it in the ally and im talking my smack like yea man we did it and no one saw us bla bla we so cool hah hahaha.. just as i was opening my big trap and about to walk past the back gate of an apartment..I see bright lights in my eyes, a car abruptly stops in front of me and BAM!!!! its guess who.. "MR" he looks at me like "what the hell u doing walking in the ally/ is that who i think it is" and i look at him like just hit me and die...

Oh the shameeeeeeee oh the embarrassment of that time.. then to make matters worse he shakes his head and drives off. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... couldnt even offer me and my friends a ride. (even tho i would have refused)

My lil pride was wounded for a second but i got over it.

Its so funny when i look back on this story cuz its so childish and not even a big deal at all.. but at that time it was like so serious....lol ...kids

Bloated (So)

So since you decided to leave me hanging once again (u know who the feck u are too)

I have been thrust back into my blog world..

so is it joblessness, boredom, idleness, or curiosity that has me writing instead of doing something more productive??

I guess ALL of the above plus I'm BLOATED!

I dunno how that happened when all I had was a dble cheeseburger, ceasar salad, and baked potato.

So im laying in bed with my orange panties and knee highs with as usual the sudden urge to run outside and scream im free!!!

anyone who knows me well, im sure has heard of my "run naked and be free" obsession.

One of these days i just need to stop being a dorkbreath and do it.. Shit whats the worst that can happen?? Get locked up?? That's nothing, everyone's been to jail at least once............. lol............i think

so... I finally got to speak to him the other day and it was well worth every second of it.. out of 100..you always occupy 99 of me...sigh..sigh...sigh..

so...some people say somethings and act a different way, is it that they just said what they said at that moment because it seemed right or convenient? Or do they say it because they mean it but don't know how to match what they say with actions? Well as for me, im not sure I like that much seeing as I am a very open person both with words and action...cant be feeling all confused trying to figure folk out man.. its this or that... no in between or when i feel like it...or when it suites me..

so.................. this summer is so very different from last summer im trying to understand if its really the economy/ recession or am I just broke??

I need a number from each person who reads this, im gonna play them on the next lotto tkt..see if i dont win bishes!!

SO.... well its not midnight yet, but it looks like there will be no midnight cravings for me tonight. Or desires. Just good ol bloatingness (sharrap its a word)

So.... hmm i feel like telling an old story..lemme start a new post..

Midnight cravings

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you know, this really sucks..............so I watch the clock as it goes

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this seems to be the worst hour of the 24hrs..when my midnight cravings start to kick in and always when i have NO way of endulging them.

midnight cravings...

ice cream
chocolates
strawberry's
wine
cuddles
good movie
more cuddles
sex
lots of sex

on the occasional midnight..dancing (pole dancing/sexy be naughty for a night kinda dancing that is)

oh these bloody midnight cravings!!

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Im starting to want more attention and i dont like it! I dont like being vulnerable dammit!

oh these bloody midnight cravings

im going to sleep!

Closer

Since this weekend this is how i feel....................................

Desire

urghhh!

its eating away at my insides

taking over my mind and soul...

i need it, she's got to have it, give it to me now kinda of feeling!

if i could just get my hands on it i will devour without looking back.

im just salivating at the thought...

and the reminiscent smell is tickling my nose

dont u want me too, i ask?

What do i have to say to make u be mine...

I want to have you all to myself...

alone in the room with the lights off

candles lit, and soft music.

Then after its over

sleep

satisfaction

serenity

GOSH IM SO FUCKING HUNGRY!!!

overwhelming

what an experience!!

In one weekend i felt all of these feelings at random times...

exhausted... driving almost 14 hrs is madness! wont do that again wtf was i thinking!?

excited........anticipating what was to come had me feeling all giddy :)

nervous ....i guess its normal to feel this when in less than 24hrs, its me, mic, and hundreds of peeps staring at me.

angry...............u would be too if your car got towed

irritated.............NYC is a crazy place but its worse when u aren't from there and have no clue what's going on.

confused..............well, this emotion for many reasons so many freaking reasons..arghhhhh

happy........ why not too many reasons, shit so many freaking reason..argghhhhh

humbled.............wasn't expecting such love and response from the people.

And lastly..................... Overwhelmed.............the entire experience, the good, bad, was all just..........

Overwhelming!!